eighteenth..

value on earth..

over the thanksgiving weekend, i had a faith shifting conversation with my wiser and older brother aisea.. we were listening to a song called "fellowship" by meshell ndegeocello that has really expanded my views on living righteously.. the lyrics that caught my attention read..

would you walk
a righteous path
without the promise
of heaven,
paradise
streets paved in gold?

would you slay
your sister,
your brotherman
for another man's greed?

'cause if you believe that your god
is better than another man
how we gonna end
all your suffering?
'cause if you believe that your god
is better than another woman
how we gonna end
all your suffering and strife?

you believe
great god gonna come from the sky
take away everything,
and make everybody feel high
but if you know what life is worth
you'll look for your's here on earth

our conversation revolved around the question of whether we would still desire to live righteously if at this very second, heaven and all of its luxuries no longer existed?.. i grew up with the idea that if i was a good person here on earth, i would have a golden crown waiting for me in heaven along with my very own mansion.. i would walk the streets of gold and never feel pain ever again.. whether or not this becomes a reality in heaven, i made the mistake of allowing this idea to become the very reason why i did right or good, my reasoning for obedience, why i tried not to sin.. it was as if, as long as i can behave myself and do what the bible says, I get all of these things..

the question is do we really desire to do good in the world because it is the right thing to do or is it in return for selfish personal gain.. do i follow the teachings of christ because i believe in finding true life to the fullest in it, or do i have alternative motives.. i think that it is easy to focus on a salvation that delivers us to a eternal heavenly place, but we miss the fact that the point of our salvation may not be our future destination but our present situation.. god is right here, right now.. his kingdom is established.. the point of the life of christ is not exclusively his death on the cross for the sins of the world, but inclusively the life that he lived before his death and resurrection.. while we place great significance on atonement, i know i tend to forget that he didnt just set me free in the afterlife, but mainly right now in the present..

i am constantly reminded through my selfishness that there are far more inportant things in life than personal gain.. instead of focusing so much on the great me, i need to love on the great we.. love is not conditioned by selfish gain, but it seeks to serve the loveless.. i hope that i can learn to live not for what i can get, but for what i can give..

+shalom..

seventeenth..

in my last few blogs, i have talked about the idea that scripture has no life without action.. when we do the things the bible says, it is then that it is alive, breathing, living.. there are some friends of mine in santa monica, ca that have really encouraged me in this and have been trying to figure out some practical ways to live out scripture.. heres an example of how theyre trying to do it..

Matthew 25:35,40
-I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink...
-whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.

OUR COMMITMENTS:
- we will drink water exclusively for the next 27 days
- we will not purchase bottled water for the next 27 days
- we will take the money we save on beverages we would have purchased and donate it to an organization that gives water to immigrants crossing the border
- we will visit this organization sometime in the next month
- we will attempt to raise money to build a well in a place where there is no drinking water
- we will monitor our own water usage and discuss the impact our usage has on the world
- we will become informed about water issues in our local westside area
- we will meet again on November 8th @ 7PM

cheers!

sixteenth..

the good.. the bad.. and the ugly..

wow.. it was recently brought to my attention that my comment function on my blog page hasn't worked in a long time.. apparently someone actually reads this thing other than me and i figured it would be worth it to try to fix it.. result: couldnt fix it so i had to start from scratch and redesign again.. spent way too much time on it already and i think my wife has been patient beyond necessity at this point.. for all my reader (jacob) out there, thanks for being patient and feel free to comment as much as you want..

before i go to bed i want to put somethin down before i forget.. im getting close to being done with my emergency medical technician (emt-1) class and im lookin forward to having my wed. nights free again.. anyway, yesterday while i was at class, we talked about different medical emergencies.. at one point we talked about insect emergencies.. it was pretty basic.. mainly signs/symptoms and treatment for stings or bites from snakes, spiders, bees, ticks, etc.. during the discussion, i got to thinking about why god would even allow these insects, reptiles, killers to even exist if they could harm, hurt, or even kill someone.. at first it seemed rather unnecessary but truth became clear..

we talked a little bit about the need for every living creation and that without certain creatures, the world or creation would be unbalanced.. the ecosystem would be flawed and incomplete.. every living thing has a part to play in the circle of life.. (i feel like mufasa now).. (ok not anymore).. anyway, its as if nothing is insignificant and everything matters.. you cant have one without the other.. it goes against how we are design to function..

this lead me to think about questions like, "why would god allow so much pain in the world?" or "does god really care about all creation?" "what about the the millions who have died of pain, suffering, hunger, disease, murder?" now, of course anyone could read really deep into these questions, but that night i was reminded that without the bad in my life, i can do no good.. i am incomplete without my sin, shortcomings, flaws.. it is in the darkness of my life that i find true light.. i am a lost soul that is only made whole by love himself.. in this spiritual balance, the righteous is never better than the unrighteous.. when i find that im living my life in goodness, i sure as heck better care as much for the bad as i would the good.. we are all connected through love..

live love, sing love, dance love, give love..

fifteenth..

"waitin on the world to change"

it amazes me how i can be so broken but feel like im whole.. ive been searching my soul for a truth that has never been hiding.. i eagerly live everyday hoping to make a difference.. its as if ive been hoping to make a difference for so long now that it feels like i dont even know what that means anymore.. i am guilty of going about my life preachin impact, difference, and change, but these concepts feel foreign to me.. i always thought that one day i would grow up and make someones life better but i have failed to live by my own expectations.. sure, i think im a nice person but nice just doesnt seem to cut it anymore..

i desire change and difference in the world for better through the global affection of love.. ive been so focused on my own self, family, community, bubble that i usually neglect the world, the globe, all mankind.. i try to read different books and participate in different conversations with friends around the country, all hoping that someday we could all do something to make the earth a better place.. i have found that if my heart never takes physical action, then my words are cheap, my hands are closed, and my heart is cold..

i grew up in a society that taught me cultural values like "only the strong survive", "do whatever i got to do to get mine"," god only helps those who help themselves", or "survival of the fittest." i feel like these values taught me to be a person that i dont like.. these values reflect the american dream which says, "i need to look out for #1 and thats me." sadly i think this has been the life i have been living.. i know that i am far most concerned with self-preservation than my neighbor.. this seems very contradictory to the teachings of jesus..

i believe that when jesus came to the earth, he was far more concerned with ALL of humanity instead of just me or you.. sometimes the tendency is to think that jesus came to die for me or loves me so much that instead of focusing on the well-being of humanity globally, we focus on ourselves.. it is a good sign of bad news if we look at the teachings of jesus and find our actions contradicting his..

ive have decided that in order to make a difference in my life, i must make a difference in the world.. now, i dont have the knowledge or resources to cure worldwide diseases, but i have been encouraged by the actions of many to make a small difference daily.. scripture has no life or substance unless we meet it with action.. im thankful that jesus wasnt in the business of self-preservation on the cross but instead presented selflessness for the unworthy..

i have joined others in pursuing how to make a global impact on the world and taking words, "good ideas", and putting them into action.. im guilty of my own selfish actions.. i know that the change needs to begin in me.. some ideas to do that may be..

donating to charities - send a child in a third world country to school through monthly financial contribution - seek out programs over seas that work to better the lives of those in need - doing something nice for someone you dont know - giving to the poor and needy - reaching out to troubled families/homes/teens - taking the time to listen before having to speak - love unconditionally - practicing self-sacrifice - clothing the naked - feeding the hungry - tending to the sick - anything that involves helping someone other than ourselves

fourteenth..

so, i've been in bed for a week now from my knee surgery and a person can only be online for so long before he runs out of stuff to do.. i thought i'd put this video on here cause its made me laugh every time i've watched it..

thirteenth..

a new beginning with firefighting..

i recently went on my first real call last wednesday.. it was quite the experience and i am forever affected by it.. on wed. i was riding around town with one of our new captains (j.smith).. he was showin me around the parts of felton that felton fire covers.. we made our rounds and he treated to lunch.. after lunch our pagers went off and we rushed back to the station to hop in the engine with the chief and the three of us took off code 3 (lights and sirens).. when we were half way there, net com (our dispatch) told us that CPR was in progress.. capt. smith looked back at me and asked if i'd been through CPR training and i told him yes.. so, he said that when we arrive on scene, he wanted me to take over for the person on scene and begin compressions (chest pumps)..

when we arrived on scene i started to get nervous but kept my cool.. we walked up the driveway and there was a woman on the ground.. the capt. and i repositioned her then continued with the CPR.. i kept the compressions until the paramedics arrived in the ambulance.. it was such a intense period of time because though i am only at the beginning of my firefighting career and training, it was a challenge to not let my emotions affect me.. this woman's life was in the hands of the care givers present..

during CPR we could not get oxygen into her lungs.. we still proceeded with CPR because she didn't have a pulse so the compressions at least circulated the oxygen in her blood for a short time.. the woman had a history of asthma and we found an inhaler on the ground.. it seemed that she had a asthma attack, which closed her airways in her lungs, which prevented her body from getting oxygen.. even though we tried to give her oxygen, her lungs wouldn't take it in..

eventually the medics did get there and gave her some drugs to help the lungs relax and take in the oxygen.. they still couldn't get a pulse so we had to continue with CPR.. i rode with another felton firefighter in the ambulance to do compressions while en-route to the hospital.. while backing up the ambulance so we could turn around and head to the hospital, the driver backed us off the side of the road and got the ambulance stuck with 3 wheels on the ground and the rear-right tire hangin about 2 feet off the drop.. it was pretty scary sitting in the ambulance and all of sudden our back side lookin like it was gonna go off a cliff.. strangely though, when the ambulance went kerplunk, the woman's pulse came back.. that was good at least..

to make an already long story short, we fought for her pulse over and over, losing it then getting it back.. regardless of the hearts activity, it seemed that this woman possibly went way too long without oxygen to her body but most importantly her brain.. i don't know her outcome from the emergency, but statistically it doesn't look good.. "brain death starts to occurs 4-6 minutes after someone experiences cardiac arrest if no CPR and defibrillation occurs during that time".. we were probably on-scene for about 15-20 minutes before the medics got there and gave her the medicine..

all this to say, i gave CPR for the first time and i realize how important of a skill it is.. the american heart association says that 75-80% of out-of-hospital cardiac arrests happen at home.. so, being trained in CPR can really make a difference between life and death for a loved one.. here are some important facts..

*Approximately 95 percent of sudden cardiac arrest victims die before reaching the hospital
*Effective bystander CPR, provided immediately after cardiac arrest, can double a victim’s chance of survival
*Death from sudden cardiac arrest is not inevitable. If more people knew CPR, more lives could be saved

after we finished the call, i talk to the captain about the call.. there were a lot of things that i learned.. the main thing that i thought about is that if this is the line of work i feel called to (which it is), then i am going to experience a career of life and death.. i didn't feel scared of firefighting but rather more drawn to it.. i hope to make a difference in whatever way possible through providing physical and even emotion care to those in need.. it was a new beginning for me.. very proud of those that do this day in day out..

twelfth..

younglife paintball taskforcepictured: me - aisea - christina

eleventh..

i realize that i haven't blogged on a lot of cool and not so cool stuff that have been happening in my life in the past few months.. i thought i'd go back and update on whats been goin on..

i'll start with the cool..

1. when shannon and i moved to california this past april (northern cali, felton, santa cruz area) i decided that now was the time for me to pursue a long life desire to be a firefighter.. it just so happened that the Felton Fire Department was looking to hire on more volunteer firefighters.. i decided to apply, went through interviews, a physical, and got accepted..

2. we witnessed the beautiful marriage of casey/shannon mara.. it was a really fun wedding and i was so honored to be a part of it.. the live carter band rock the house and i represented the aisea taimani limbo skills.. oish..

3. went to arizona to meet the new nephew.. awesome time with the family.. got the nephy some baby jordans.. every young man needs a pair of 23's..

4. from az, i flew to virigina to take part in the tim/courtney fair wedding.. went fishing in the ocean for tim's bachelor deal.. realized that i was a master fisherman, but for only six hours in the atlantic (they were small fish but still fish that i caught).. it was so good to reunite with friends from johnson bible college (the school i went to from 2004-06)..

5. shannon and i found a church that we really like and we got involved with a newlywed community group that has been really special for us.. there are 8 couples total so it makes for a real good time.. everyone brings something different to the table so its awesome..

6. i have really been enjoying the firefighting.. the training has been awesome and i am learning more and more about the fire service.. i am lookin to make a career in firefighting so it has been very exciting to pursue somethin wholeheartedly that i believe i will be doin for the rest of my life and that i also feel called to.. i got CPR and 1st responder certified and am now going through my EMT-Basic course to be more involved in our medical calls here in felton..

the things about being a volunteer firefighter, its as if i get to do 95% of what normal full-time firefighters do but just without the income.. i dont mind the financial aspect because i still get paid per call and training session (1 per week) but the biggest thing is i get all the experience now which is very valuable.. we have two full-time paid positions there (the chief and an engineer) and about 30 of us are volunteers with other full-time jobs.. some of them work as full-time firefighters elsewhere and volunteer there on their days off.. im just a carpenter/firefighter..

7. in california, there is CALFIRE.. calfire was formerly known as CDF (california department of forestry and fire protection).. calfire is pretty much firefighting but wildland firefighting (all land/brush/wild fires/non-structure fires).. i decided to try to get on with calfire as my new full-time job for the 2008 season.. i have to finish my EMT, and take 2 other classes before i can interview in february..

8. now through the blessing of health/dental insurance, i have been able to go to the dentist office after a 10+ year absence.. its been too long.. i have cavities and wisdom to pull..

9. shannon got to go to arizona to see the family and co/throw a baby shower for kerry and tracey's baby ryan due really soon.. while she was gone, i decided to visit my big brosky aisea in santa monica, ca.. it was a lot of fun and we ended up goin with LA younglife leader retreat over the weekend i was there.. i got to help my bro with worship and i also went paintballin for the first time.. i learned the harsh reality that in paintball, the nice guys finish last.. i will show no mercy the next time..

now for the not-so-cool..

1. when shannon and i moved here in april, she got pregnant.. many folks knew that already but most didnt know that we also had a miscarriage after the first month.. shannon got really sick and i had to take her to the emergency room.. it was a scary and painful time but we have been able to receive healing and comfort from the situation.. mount hermon (where we live and shannon works) gave us a baby redwood tree to plant here on property to take care of it.. that was really nice of them..

2. i got in a wreck that totaled our audi that we only had for 4 months.. it was the day after shannon's birthday.. not the kind of surprise she was expecting.. we did however end up buying a brand new 2007, 4 door, honda civic with only 5 miles on it..

3. i joined a church basketball league and on the first game i busted my knee up really bad.. i wrote the details of it on the last blog.. due to the injury i now have plenty of time to blog.. bitter sweet..

4. the injury has put a huge time crunch on me with trying to get my classes completed before the CALFIRE hiring period.. if i dont heal in time for the classes, then i wont be able to apply, therefore i will not be able to get on as planned until the 2009 fire season which fumbles my/our financial plans for the next year.. it puts a challenge on paying for our new furniture, school loans, new car loan, dental expenses, knee surgery, and on top of that, doing it on one source of income while im not workin..

wow, that was a whole lotta but to say the least, it has been as interesting first 6.5 months in california and its been challenging but god has been good and faithful and we trust him with our lives and future.. i plan to not have to write a blog this long ever again..

shalom..

vtaimani..

tenth..

I am not doing very good at this bloggin deal . I am currently disabled so hopefully that will allow me to blog regularly . what I mean by disabled is, I recently blew out my left knee last month playing basketball . to give you an idea... 1. COMPLETELY tore my A.C.L. - 2. tore my meniscus - 3. sprained my M.C.L. - 4. caused bruising and swelling on my femur and tibia from the rough impact, and - 5. sprained tendons on the left side of my left knee. That sure is a lot to go wrong with one injury but what can ya do. Anyway, I am going into surgery this Thursday so life will be interesting the next 3 months. I need to go to bed for now but I will be around the computer the next 3 months. Till then... good night

v.taimani

ninth..

it has been so long since i have blogged.. this summer has been a roller coaster and things arent slowing down any.. hopefully i can get on a normal routine of bloggin.. for now, i thought i would join in on spreadin the gospel of a great video clip.. click here